Jaded, jaded, jaded... i feel jaded.
I just love being jaded by people.
I will start off with the first person on the list and that would be my friend (who I will name soldier girl). I met soldier girl at a local bar doing kareoke through my best friend. Now I must say that when I met this girl and her sister I fell in love with them. They were such awesome, real people that I just wanted to get to know them so much more. In the beginning it was great. We went out maybe once a week or every other week doing karaoke and just enjoying each others company. I would talk to soldier girl over the phone maybe 3 times a week or less depending on her work schedule. And then there was nothing.
I have not received a phone call since the halloween party or even a messaging saying that it was fun having me there. It just seems that latey she has gone off the grid and didn't even bother calling me to say happy birthday to me which kind of hurt since it was my 21st. I can understand that all of her other friends have working vehicles or jobs when I don't have either. That I am not even financially capable I can understand whats going on. But it just seems that I am trying to make the relationship work and she just isnt trying. I don't know what to do.
And then theres Mark. Not marky mark but mark. We talked over the phone for about 2 months before we actually met. I have to say, I had a better time over the phone then in person. I loved alot of things about him but evendently it just seemed as if I wasn't good enough for him that he just decided to stop calling or even letting me know he was alive. He then tells me that I am not his type and thats why he stopped calling me. I found this all very funny seeing as I was just only looking for a friend while I guess he was looking for boyfriend material. Anywho, right now I feel kind of left out of his life. With not being able to see him since he lives all the way in middleburg and I in Jax, distance is not good between us. Plus it also sucks when he is in town but never stops by to say hi. I just feel that I got to know him really well and then as soon as he met me, everything changed for the worse. I know I am a big boy and ive overweight but hell, that shouldn't hinder anyone from communicating. I don't know if hes shallow or what not but I just kind of feel jaded in the end because hes not making the effort.
Personally, I feel kim is a friend since she does once in awhole say hey but Mark, not so much. I just think the relationship we had over the phone was awesome and once we met, he obviously didn't like what he saw. Oh well, I know im not eye candy but with my rockin personality, charm, and average looks I like im a beautiful person.
So fuck others who don't think so.
Angel
I will start off with the first person on the list and that would be my friend (who I will name soldier girl). I met soldier girl at a local bar doing kareoke through my best friend. Now I must say that when I met this girl and her sister I fell in love with them. They were such awesome, real people that I just wanted to get to know them so much more. In the beginning it was great. We went out maybe once a week or every other week doing karaoke and just enjoying each others company. I would talk to soldier girl over the phone maybe 3 times a week or less depending on her work schedule. And then there was nothing.
I have not received a phone call since the halloween party or even a messaging saying that it was fun having me there. It just seems that latey she has gone off the grid and didn't even bother calling me to say happy birthday to me which kind of hurt since it was my 21st. I can understand that all of her other friends have working vehicles or jobs when I don't have either. That I am not even financially capable I can understand whats going on. But it just seems that I am trying to make the relationship work and she just isnt trying. I don't know what to do.
And then theres Mark. Not marky mark but mark. We talked over the phone for about 2 months before we actually met. I have to say, I had a better time over the phone then in person. I loved alot of things about him but evendently it just seemed as if I wasn't good enough for him that he just decided to stop calling or even letting me know he was alive. He then tells me that I am not his type and thats why he stopped calling me. I found this all very funny seeing as I was just only looking for a friend while I guess he was looking for boyfriend material. Anywho, right now I feel kind of left out of his life. With not being able to see him since he lives all the way in middleburg and I in Jax, distance is not good between us. Plus it also sucks when he is in town but never stops by to say hi. I just feel that I got to know him really well and then as soon as he met me, everything changed for the worse. I know I am a big boy and ive overweight but hell, that shouldn't hinder anyone from communicating. I don't know if hes shallow or what not but I just kind of feel jaded in the end because hes not making the effort.
Personally, I feel kim is a friend since she does once in awhole say hey but Mark, not so much. I just think the relationship we had over the phone was awesome and once we met, he obviously didn't like what he saw. Oh well, I know im not eye candy but with my rockin personality, charm, and average looks I like im a beautiful person.
So fuck others who don't think so.
Angel
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