Another Year Without The "L" Word

No I don't mean the television show about lesbians and their lives. I am actually talking about the one thing in life that everyone needs, even myself... love. Its been 3 years since my fiance has passed and since then, I still feel alone. I have had dates here and there but it seems the only thing people want from me is sex. Why in the hell does it take so long to find someone who will atleast be there for me, without the sex. I mean it just seems that every guy I meet theres sex in his eyes. I don't know if its because they find me attractive only for sex or is it because thats all they think I am good for. Sometimes I just feel left out of the mix.

Truthfully when it comes to finding someone I always keep an open mind. Im not about making lists or any of that bull because you can find the most amazing people in the most least of places. I just wish my life was alittle bit more of an adventure instead of standing in the waiting line for mr.next. I mean I know I am awesome in more ways then I can count but it just seems that trying to find a guy is turning out to be a headache. I just hope that someone comes along to swoop me off my feets and woo me, yes I said woo me. But I will just have to wait in the big long ass dating line hoping my number gets called.

Being alone is a bitch.