I Dont Feel Sober

OK... let me explain why I am in the mood I am. I've been talking to this guy for about 2 weeks or so. Hes been...how should I say this, romantic with his words. Now I am a person whom sees this from a curious perspective because I always know its behind something. I just...don't know. I finally talked to him on the phone 2 days ago. He has a roommate who is a good friend and they use to be fuck buddies but he got tired of the roommates ways so their just friends now. The other guy, I believe, is super jealous. Like I would call the number he gave me and no one would pick up. Second time it goes after 3 rings and straight to the answering machine, not like the last 8 rings it did before. I left a message and I haven't heard back. Then tonight he comes online and hey says hey, and then says hes gotta go take a shower and says he will contact me once hes done, that was 10 o'clock, its past midnight now.

Another thing about this guy is that he says he doesn't have a cellphone. Yet, on his yahoo messenger he has his going away thing on "I'm Mobile". I confused and frustrated cause I think hes playing me or I am just being stupid. I don't know, I will just see where this leads and hope that this is not a game and I am not being played.

Sometimes, I hate being alone for too long because I think it gets to my head. And having no one I can kiss and hold. I need something that doesn't revolve around sex. I need to be with a man... Not sexually but to be. Because it hurts soo much when I am not. And it hurts when I feel so disconnected.

And right now, I don't feel as sober as yesterday.

Update 12PM: By the way this was last night, right now im feeling alittle stronger. But im still frazzled about this guy.