Prayers for Ryan

I decided to dedicate this post to my good friend Ryan who is in the hospital right now. From what I hear it sounds very severe and I am very frightened for him. So if anyone who visits here can you please pray for Ryans safe recovery. I have already gone through my little grapevine of people I know who pray for people. Some people may call this drastic or too much but I really love that guy, hes like the brother I never had. Also pray for his family also. I know they will also need all the prayer they can get.

Please pray for him please.

What does it mean...

when a guy your interested in is a "physical" clone of someone you despise. One of the guys I have been talking to here and there and have a general interest in seems like a really cool guy. But today when my brother walked into the house I about shit my pants because it looked like the guy I was interested in. If my (my brother's the it) brother hadn't said something I would have freaked out.

Is it a good thing that the guy your interested in looks alot like your brother! Ugh! God sometimes I wish my brain didn't register things. Then i wouldn't have to feel awkward talking with the guy I am interested in. I know I have said this before but I despise my brother, a hulluva lot. Now whenenver I am thinking or talking to the guy I am interested in, I will have that mental image in my head. This is soo fucked up!

For the past couple of days I have been super moody, nerves been acting up, and sleepy then not sleepy. I have a general idea whats wrong but I will have to see if things change.

Also I wanted to say thanks to everyone who's been commenting. I have like about 2 friends in Jacksonville that I talk to and one of them I only hear from when they have the time cuz they work like crazy. Having the feeling of loneliness and not really being able to get out is hard but I have to deal one way or another. I also wanted to say thanks to Angela. I may not really know you as I know Mr.Field but hopefully we can chit chat whenever there is time. Oh and thank you for letting me know who Holly is, I wasn't entirely sure who she was.

Alright I am going to go snuggle with my kitty and watch my favorite show of all time "Queer as Folk". Hopefully this will bring up my mood more as writing this has.

Later bloggers.

Do the happy dance ^-^

I got word back from Ravenous Romance about my (20+) page short story I wrote about a month ago. This lady (I guess shes an agent, I dont know) named Holly Schmidt (hope I spelled that right) said she was interested and wanted to review the manuscript. Hopefully my short story will get published so I can continue writing more short stories and build up my cred abit. I am excited but I am also cautious because the lady could see my short story and reject it. I am just happy I got a response from Ravenous because I love what they are doing with their writers.

Now I dont usually write Romance because for me its just not my thing. I am more of a genre blender. I like to mix romance with abit of everything else. But for the short story I wrote it was a good mixture of comedy, romance, and supernatural. Just the kind of thing I love writing about.

Went to the first opening of the Diversity Alliance club I started with a librarian. It was nice and I really enjoyed myself. There weren't alot of people there but it was defintely a great experience.

Ok thats it for now. I am going to get off of this library computer and hope my ride comes soon cause I soo wanna drown myself in cold ice water lol. Care to see me wet...? lol

Angel

I Love Pictures

Pictures to me are one of the many beautiful ways of expression. Especially still pictures where there are no titles and no explanations. I find it very intriguing and funny when I post pictures. Because if you don't explain, its fun to see people trying to figure out what the pictures intended meaning is.

The answer your questions I'm going to start with explaining the pictures. First I tagged along with my brother to his friends house. They were having a little get together which involved games and food (free food is awesome lol). Anyway things were going great when the two boys (in the pictures) went outside. They came back into the house smelling like they just smoked a blunt of something most young college boys do. So they came back in and started stripping! I was shocked and turned on so much I was just...drooling lol. I never got to see anything special besides their bum bum's but all in all, I was thoroughly enjoying myself. :)!

So once they were done changing into the nighties lol, I took out my camera and snapped the photos. They knew I did it and were cool with it. And there you guys go. These guys are just friends of my brother. I was hoping this boys were even remotely bi because if my brothers wasn't there, I would have pounced on that quicker then a cheetah lol. God they were soo smexy... By the way I caught the first episode to MTV's The Dual II. Yeah I am a big fan of the Real World. Its like a soap opera I can't wait to see. I hope this answers everyones question lol. And Ryan I love ya man. I miss talking with ya hit me up yo hehe. My little lady, I wish that was the guy I was talking to. If it was id be all smiles hehe. So yeah that basically explains that night.

Nothing really is going on with me. My cold has gotten better. I just have alittle scratchiness and light coughing hear and there so its cool. I CAN SMELL AND TASTE AGAIN WHOOHOO! lol. Well thats all for now.

Happy Humpday!

Pictures say a thousand words...

about last night.



Ooh, I do declare... lol


Goodmorning Friends

The Easter Bunny Brought Me Something

Family...

I havent seen my aunt in about a year. I gotta tell you guys something. I love my aunt. Shes actually my mothers sister (shes a year older then my mom). That lady reminds me soo much of my mother but has this sort of spark in her that my mother doesn't. What I just found out (and I never knew) is that my aunt is actually my godmother. I was shocked and rather pleased, my parents made a good decision on that one. My aunt lives up in New York with her family. Shes a teacher who actually teachers future teachers. Shes an amazing woman and I wish I knew her when she was growing up. Shes just that kind of person that... I don't know. Its almost like her personality just draws you in and you just want to love her. I can't wait to save some money so I can go see her up in New York. God... I miss new york...

My grandparents came by also with my aunt. I love my grandparents on my mothers side. They are really good people. My grandmother is a hoot! She is always a great person to have a conversation with. My grandfather (hes my only grandfather) is pretty cool. He doesn't really say much in English because hes from Puerto Rico and refuses to speak English unless necessary. He was also a vet from WWII. His brother actually is a monseigneur (before bishop in catholic religion) in Puerto Rico. They don't know this but I love my dads mother more in New York. She may be a grandma but shes always one to make people laugh even when their having a lowzy day. My dad gets that from her and luckily, so do I. ^_^

I don't usually celebrate Easter because to me its not really a holiday. But this year I defintely enjoyed myself. I am getting better. I still have alittle bit of phlem but all in all I am feeling better. Thanks for the messages my friends. They defintely help me when I am down.

Cherry O' Peeps and Happy Easter!

Happy Friday

I still have a cold. Its not as bad as it use to be but I'm still good. Happy Friday everyone! By the way the picture below I took with my new cellphone camera.

Carpe Diem!

That Green Little Monster

I hate colds... My brother recently got a cold and you know what, now I have one. I haven't had a cold in literally 3 years and now I do. Sometimes I just feel that whenever it comes, it comes and bites you on the ass when you least expect it. I am glad my throat doesn't feel like a desert. So its all good for right now. The guy I have been speaking to lately has messaged me a couple of times already. Things seem to be going good between us which is awesome. For some reason I am just not in the mood for writing, I guess its because of my cold I don't know.

But in anycase I will keep you guys updated.

Angel

I Fucking Hate You Blood Brother

What you did was low

"Low"

Everybody’s talking
But they don’t say a thing
They look at me with sad eyes
But I don’t want the sympathy
Its cool you didn’t want me
Sometimes you can’t go back
But why’d you have to go and make a mess like that
Well I just have to say
Before I let go

Have you ever been low?
Have you ever had a friend that let you down so?
When the truth came out
Were you the last to know?
Were you left out in the cold?
What you did was low

No I don’t need your number
There’s nothing left to say
Except I never thought it'd hurt this much to be saved
My friends are outside waiting
I’ve gotta go

Have you ever been low?
Have you ever had a friend that let you down so?
When the truth came out
Were you the last to know?
Were you left out in the cold?
What you did was low
What you did was low (low)
What you did was low (low)
What you did was low (low)

I walk out of this darkness
With no sense of regret
And I go with a clear conscience
We both know that you can’t say that
Here's to show
For all the time I loved you so…
So...

Have you ever been low?
Have you ever had a friend that let you down so?
When the truth came out
Were you the last to know?
Were you left out in the cold?
What you did was low
Have you ever been low?
Have you ever had a friend that let you down so?
When the truth came out
Were you the last to know?
Were you left out in the cold?
What you did was low
Have you ever been low?
Have you ever had a friend that let you down so?
Cuz what you did was low