Good Morning Starshine, The Earth Says Hello!

Before I start I wanted to say thank you to the people who have posted on my last post. I don't usually get alot of people commenting on my posts and seeing when people do really brightens my day. I'm a sucker for good comments ^_^.

Heyo people,

I woke up very happy this morning as you can see from the title of this post, heh. Yesterday for me was a very very long day. So long I thought I would have never made it! So lets have a little run down of my day. Monday night I never went to bed at all. I was tossin, and turning, and movin to the groovin...ok not the groovin part but you get where I'm coming from. My little baby cat was passed out and in her sleep was tapping on my head, I guess she was doing a musical number in her head...who knows? So I was not able to go to sleep and I had to be in school at 8AM...sigh. So at 630 I had to push myself off the bed because my mind was saying hells no. Got up, got dressed and did the whole morning routine. Got to school and actually made it through the morning. I was so proud of myself you just don't know it. Ooh, let me tell you about what I saw in the computer lab while I waited for my ride to pick me up.

In high school (like the 9th or grade or something) I had a crush on this boy named Ryan (no not the two Ryans I have linked on here). He was about 5'8, soft dark brown hair, and the most beautiful blue eyes god could have given him. Also he had a very sexy smile and a nice ass but whose looking (points at self). Anywho I was in the computer lab when I turned to my right to look outside the window into the other computer lab and there he was. More grown up and sexy as ever. I could have stared at him all day in a very gawker like attitude. For some reason I have an affinity for guys who can wear a shit and jeans and it looks sexy on them, and I don't discriminate. I must have stared at him for about 10 minutes before his gaze turned toward mine. I was literally in shock like a deer caught in headlights. He turned back to what he was doing as if he didn't know who I was. If I psychic or something I would have whispered into his mine to come n get me and ravage me infront of everyone...but thats just lil ole me hehe.

Spoke to ryan (from boys are ugly but so cute) and I was very happy to hear he is feeling alot better and has been back at work since Monday. I felt really bad for Ryan and almost got up and made my way to his place to be his little nurse...even though he had Kadin and his mother. So I decided not to since he was being attended to. Honestly, sometimes I feel like taking care of people I care about alot. Like if my mama Laurie got sick and she was alone and no one to care for her, I would get my ass over there and nurse her back to health (if I could). Thats just the caring side of me that doesn't want to loose people whom I hold dear to me.

Moving on to work...wait wait lets back that up abit. I got picked up by my daddyo (thats his nickname I gave him, he likes it :) ) and he told me we had to pick up my brother because he was late for work. My brother, during class, left a message on my phone saying," You forgot to put my clothes in the washer, now I'm gunna be late for work." I just rolled my eyes because I never intended to put his clothes in there anyhow. Instead of getting stoned out of your face little brother (which hes like 25) you could have done your responsibility and done it earlier since you were off Sunday and Monday! My dad told me it wasn't my fault since it was his responsibility, not mine. Sometimes I just love my daddyo more then ever when he agrees with me, even though he is very stubborn.

We got home and my brother wasn't even ready, he was like 4 hours late to work. So I decided to make myself some eggs with cheese and make a fresh pot of coffee since I was feeling the sleep creeping up on me. So I had my coffee and my eggs ate on the way to work...the eggs were sooo GOOD, YUM! Got to work very chipper with fresh brewed (Bustello: Spanish Coffee) coffee in me. I was ready to start getting to work when I forgot that today was background check day. I was kind of leery about it because I don't really like background checks but what do I have to hide, nothing at all. So I did that and made my way to start working which was pretty boring but nevertheless, its work. I got off around 4 ish and made my way to this new program that the library was having called "Poetry n More". I was kind of shocked when I got there and noticed I was the oldest one there besides the librarian who was coordinating the club, jinkies!

So the program was abit boring and it was basically a hangout for teens (12-18) to enjoy themselves with games, singing, and poetry. I decided to walk up to this one girl who looked really bored and very anti-social. I wanted to see if I could get her to write me a poem or haiku. She told me that she stopped writing about 3 years ago. I asked her why and she didn't say. It kind of put a pain in my heart to hear someone say that but it also reminded me about one time where I didn't write for a whole year, only because I had forgot about it. So I asked her if she could and she said ok. She never did and started playing a couple of games with the other teens. Atleast I think I provoked her to get up and enjoy herself. Letting her know that she has been seen and that people know shes there. I felt mighty good about it.

Then this girl came in who did an improv dance to some rock music (she could have done better but I clapped anyhow). Then I decided to open my big mouth and say I was going to sing. I did an improv version of a song I thought up in my head which actually came out really awesome. Got a big applause from everyone and even had a couple of kids telling me I should try out for American Idol, which I previous did back in 08. Even the librarian lady that coordinates the clubs (shes a good friend of mine and I work with her) said she was impressed at my hidden talent and said she would like to see more of what I can do. Feeling good, oh hell yes.

I called my daddyo to come n pick em up from work and he said he would get here in 20 mins or so. So I decided to sit down at one of the library desks and get on the internet. About 15 mins on the computer someone gets really close to my ear and says," Wow, you smell good." I also yipped until I turned around and noticed it was my mom, sneaky sneaky. So we drove home and I brought some groceries they had bought and put them away. By that time I was SOO DAMN SLEEPY. My head hit the pillow at 6pm and I was out for the count. That about ends my day yesterday. What a very eventful day!

Cheers to a happy morning,
Your lil angel

The Fustrated N The Bitchy

Hey peeps!

Well I decided to go to a tech support forums *free of charge* and spoke to someone about my problem. The guy told me what to do and the computer turned on *YaY!*...for about 3-5 mins *NO!*. The guy thinks it may be the power supply since the power supply for that computer is weak known to fail after a few years. Another guy says it could be the graphics card but I don't think thats what it is. I'm not really frustrated any more about my computer. More or less I am just waiting to hear from the guy and find a way to fix the damn thing so I can use it. Its alot more faster then the one im using now and it has a dvd drive and burning technology for both dvd & cdr/rw *Woot woot*. hehe. Thanks for my little lady for trying.

Ok onward to my weekend. Friday I didnt do anything, at all. OH but we did have pizza, that was my highlight for that day (yeah, lame I know). Saturday was a big snore, slept most of the day. Sunday I woke up around 9 in the morning. I really had to look at my clock because I was sleepy as shit. Then my friend tasha called and I spoke to her. She wanted to know if I could go with her and her boyfriend (row row as I call him) to the flea market. I was like ok, im good. She said she would pick me up around 2ish. Well stupid me, I went to go drain my keebler and went back into my room to check my email, suddenly falling asleep after I checked it. I woke up with the computer on and hugging the the keyboard LOL. The only reason why I woke up is because I heard knocking at the front door and my phone going off.

My brother says shes at the door knocking as my phone stops ringing and I walk out of my room with nothing but my fitted sheet because well, I like to walk around the house naked and the fitted sheet is just a convenience for my folks (their not nakey people like me). I tell him why he didn't open the door for her and he said he didn't know. He was being lazy and an ass of course since he was playing his world of warcraft game... grr. Anywho I look outside and noones there so I sit on the couch and call her up. She says she was knocking on my door for 15 minutes (she over-exaggerates)when she only was knocking for about 3 mins tops. I totally forgot about going to the flea market, my mind a blur. I told her I was sorry, I passed out. She goes on to saying that she had to pee really bad and decided to go to the gas station that is up the road. She then tells me that if I want to go hang with her my brother has to drop me off at the gas station. I asked her why she can't turn around and she said because her boyfriend said no.

At this point she slapped me in the face, yet again about her damn boyfriend telling her what to do and her following it. This girl seriously needs to get beyond that shit because its annoying as hell. Ive known her soo much longer then the little skinny Brazilian boy. Hell, shes even older then him by 5 years! Ugh, anyway I told her I would see if my brother would bring me. She said whatever and hung up. At this point I basically wanted to go through the phone and slap her on the head. Oh and punch her boyfriend in the face for being a controlling bastard. Anywho I told my brother and he said yes. It look me 5 minutes to pry him off the computer...maybe more. Then he went to the bathroom to go take a shit! Ugh... I know its my fault for forgetting but the girl could have waited 5 minutes for me to get dressed or waited alittle longer for me to open the damn door! Gah!

Anyway I called her back, already dressed and she said that her boyfriend said that she could pick me up. Again another slap and me at the point of wanting to kick her in the shins and beat her boyfriend senseless. I mean its HER CAR and her parents pay for the damn gas. Shes so damned spoiled that the only thing she pays for (sometimes) is her cigarettes. Wish I had parents who spoiled me... Everything I buy that I need I usually have to do their laundry or something they don't want to do to earn the money. Or I earn it another way by doing surveys and shit.

Anywho she picks me up and I say hi and then don't speak to her all the way there. We have small talk though but thats about it because I was pissed and I was trying to be cool about it. It was about 50 cents to get into the flea market which was ok because I had that. Why she couldn't pay it since she invited me I don't know but whatever. Atleast I had the change. We get there and walk around and look at everything. Then when we split up from her boyfriend and we have alone time she start apologizing for the way she reacted, not for the boyfriend part just being snooty on the phone to me. I am still mad so I say whatever, forget about it. She drops me off home and I still feel like kicking and punching. But of course I never did because I dont condone violence unless its to defend myself or others I know and love.

Heres to starting the week off frustrated and bitchy on a Monday morning.

My Emachine T3062 is Tweaking

Ok this one is more of a hardware question. If ryan or laurie can link this post to their blog I would definitely appreciate it. I was wondering if anyone can help me out with my current situations. I have an eMachines T3062 AMD Athlon XP 3000+ / 2GB DDR / 160GB HDD / DVD±RW Dual-Layer / Flash Media Reader / NVIDIA GeForce 4 MX / 10/100Mbps LAN / Windows XP Pro SP3 and I am having trouble with it. It seems that whenever I turn the computer on it begins to load on the windows xp screen and then the computer freezes, the screen going blank. I hear this low beep (one beep) which basically tells me my computer is frozen. I try turning it on and off a couple of times but and it does the same thing. Sometimes the screen will load and then it will freeze and turn off. My monitor (ViewSonic A95f) light will go from green to blinking like the computer is turned off. I took my computer to Comp USA and they told me nothing was wrong with it. They even showed me that it worked just fine but it did the same thing there just once unlike at home where it did it repeatedly. I don't know if its the power supply on my computer or the power running through our home but the computer was working great for a couple of years. I just dont understand why this is happening and I want to know what I can do to fix this.

Thanks to anyone that can help.

The Very Frustrated Lil Angel

Everyone, meet the lil demon

Ok this morning I woke up really pissed off. I know the reasons why are abit stupid but in some ways to me, their not. Maybe they would seem kinda winey, oh well sue me. All I can say is my mother took a couple of things away from me that I had bought or looked for for everyone in the family and now I can't even access them. IM super pissed off and this close to starting a bit of my own poopage toward both of my parents but I know its disrespectful but isnt it disrespectful what they have done. I don't want to go into detail but just to say I am super pissed off and I hope I can get over it soon or I am going to be a real bitch this morning. Maybe when I talk to ryan or laurie today I will calm down. They seem to do that to me when I feel like shit or if I am not in a good mood.

no angel this morning, only the lil demon.

heres to an angel letting you know that my horns are holding up that halo today.

Say Hi To Mr. Toilet

I had to learn this the hard way last night. Last night I went to the Un-Valentines day party which actually turned out to be just a gathering of friends. It was Melissa (the hostess for the evening), kim (my good friend), crystal (her sister who is also a good friend), travis (the hunky gay friend of Melissa), and me. Ok now I am betting that you guys are like, whos the hunk? Well this was the first time I met him and I must say that I was impressed on his looks and on how he talks. Personality wise hes ok, hes not a 10 in that category. On looks I thought he was hot. Then he started saying how he needs to loose weight and I told him to his face," Boy, you dont need to loose weight. Your are hot as you are." I wish I would have said I wanted a kiss from him but he then started showing pictures of his boyfriend and started saying that he is kind of shallow and only likes twinks... sigh. Sometimes I just think really good looking people past me by because they want something materialistic. I know you can be hot and sexy but atleast open your eyes. I don't discriminate and I know I would make one helluva boyfriend...just I dont make alot of money. I blame the media for brainwashing america into thinking whats hot and whats not. Thank you advertising assholes.

Ok moving on with my night, Travis left and we got to drinking. I had maybe about 8 smirnoffs to start. I felt fine and was not buzzed at all. We were all talking away about alot of differnt things. Then came the Lite Rum & Coke. I had about two cups full of that and I was not buzzing but just dizzy. I got up to go to the restroom because we were all going to be leaving (it was like 3 in the morning) and I was very very wobbly. At this point I knew I was drunk. I wobbled to the toilet
and I dont remember what happened I just remember I was at the sink and kim was laughing. I asked her what happened and she said I threw up. Now let me just inform you guys I may be 21 but even trying to get plastered I have never ever threw up. Ive gotten a good buzz going but never thrown up drunk. I blame me not eating anything that day. Good job Angel.

Anywho on the ride home me and kim are talking away like good drunk people do sometimes. I noticed that I am a very happy drunk, which is good. So we were talking and kim started kissing me. At this point I was so buzzed out of my mind that I didn't care and just enjoyed the moment even though I dont feel anything towards her. Anywho I get home and me and kim are laughing away at the door when my dad opens the door and notices that I am drunk so my dad starting laughing to. I get in go to my room and take off all my clothes. I think I may have walked naked back n forth to the bathroom but I dont think anyone saw me. Went to my room and decided I would sleep but that didnt work so I put a bed sheet over me because I like being naked when I am at home. Its just a thing with me, ryan knows what im talking about. Anywho my dad is on Yahoo chat speaking to a couple of girls and I was bored so I started talking to this girl who lives in New Zealand. She sounded cute and I saw her on her webcam and thought she was cute. Anywho I know it is mean to do things to people but I have never rapped to a girl in my life, or a guy for that matter. I don't know if its being shy or whatever but thats not the subject. I just tell her how pretty she is and what not and we start a conversation. To put it short, I got up when I was done talking with her and went to my room and I slept like a baby.

Woke up and talked to my parents. I even talked to them again about me being gay. They hate hearing about it but I talk about me being gay because they seem to forget im gay. I guess its a repressing thing, I dont know. Anyway I decide to CUT MY HAIR! So I take some sissors and cut away until I had a style that was short but a little bit long. My hair doesn't fall on my shoulders anymore and I am kinda liking it. In anycase I have a new haircut that I did myself which came out great, and I will drink but drink responsibly and NOT MIX DRINKS!. Oh and eat first before you drink.

If any of you know my myspace I will be uploading the pictures of my new haircut so I can show everyone.

Later gator.

Pillow Talk

Hello people,

Its been a long couple of day for me so let me fill ya in on whats been going down. Friday I went out with my (so called) friend Kim. I like this girl alot and consider her a friend but I guess shes always busy and lazy at calling people back *shrugs*. In anycase we went out and we went to a karaoke bar out by Jaxport (way out on the westside). It was a nice small bar with friendly people so that was cool. They had food there because it was some guys birthday which we all sung happy birthday to the guy, hes turned 51. Saw a cute guy come in with this girl who looked very grungy. Met Kim's other friends Samson and Melissa. Samson is actually a gay fillapino. Hes cute but he is so not my type just for the fact that he seems stuck up and shallow. I really hate people like that. He may be older then me but there no need to act that way.

Anywho I sung about 8 or 9 songs, I dont remember. Had about 8 or 9 beers... which I wont do again. I really dont like drinking beer unless its like a malt. In anycase my favorite drinks are rum & coke and 7/7. Yes, I do love my liquor. I also love my wine heh. Moving on, I didnt get a chance to go to school monday because I was just way too damn tired and to get up all thanks to my insomnia. Since ive met my new doctor im on a new medication for my depression (anxiety), and insomnia. I feel kinda lightheaded right now so thank god im not driving. Hopefully when I get use to the drugs I will feel better.

Oh, listen to this. Kim's friend Melissa invited me and Kim to an Anti-Valentines Day Party. Im excited about this because for the last couple of years ive been alone during valentines day and its actually quite depressing so I am happy that I will be around people, probably drinking who knows. Atleast I wont be alone.

I haven't heard from Ryan lately which is kind of bugging me. I know hes been sick but I just hope hes getting better. Sometimes I really hate long distance relationships because hes just such a good friend I would want to take care of him while Kadin's away working. Kinda like a babysitter lol. Also Ryan recommened me talking to Ryan Field about writing since im almost done with my book. Haven't heard from the guy in awhile so I don't know. Anywho I am going to get ready for work...sigh. These new pills are making me sleepy.

Peace and afrogreese!

Angel

P.S. Can't wait to talk to you again my little lady! ^_^

No Problems Today

as mornings go, this morning has been good. The other day I had a pretty good day at school. My teacher told me about a program that if you write a paragraph, they can pay for your GED. I think its some sort of scholarship or something I am not sure. Afterward, I spoke with Ryan which I was really happy to talk to. It seems that when I talk to someone I really like it perks up my day which is good.

Anywho at work (yesterday) I enjoyed myself a little bit. Its nice when some of the workers open up more and speak to me. I know I'm still a newbie there but atleast some people are opening up to me. Also the lady I told you guys about who seems like a bitch, well she is actually kind of nice if you take the time to get to know her. Oh and the black thing on her lip, I saw old pictures of her and she has it so I guess its a blemish or something. I would rather stay away from her and just do my job and leave. Now my boss who I think is a lesbian I noticed that she is abit anti-social. Its kind of strange because as a librarian your always talking with people but she seems super shy and very very anti-social. I just feel like I should talk to her more or do something but I don't like to intrude on other peoples lives unless I believe I should. In anycase, I am definitely going to try to talk to her, have her open up. I did get her to smile abit, which perked me up lol. I'm pretty easy to appease lol.

holy hellio batman, one of my old friends just called me! She asked me if I was interested in going to go do Karaoke. I was just caught off guard because I hadn't heard from her since October 31st when I went to her Halloween party. Shes says its going to be her and her friends and me. I'm abit flustered because I haven't seen or heard from her in months and I just feel like she needs me when she needs me. I don't know... but she hasn't been an ass to me or anything so I guess I shouldn't give up on her. Hell, its a free night to go out and enjoy myself, why not!

Today I am going to go to meet my new doctor (heard hes a looker...yum) since now I have medical insurance, yay. Right now I'm gunna snack on the new quake rice cake snakes (50 cal a bag) cheesy crunch. Yummy in my tummy.

Later bloggers and bloggettes!